I’m so sorry to do this. Idk how to handle the self-loathing right now. I’m a 36 y/o woman who got rejected by her mother and can’t handle shit apparently, lmao. Its 1 am, I’ve been crying for an hour, the suicidal ideation has completely taken over my mind and I’m so lost and confused and I’m scared to be a burden to anyone. I feel like I’ve regressed to nothingness

And I’m supposed to call my bf before bed, but I’m so scared of dumping this all in his lap and being a burden and a rotten human being for doing so

I can’t see anything clearly anymore. I’m so sorry for posting this

Edit: a word or 2 cause the autocorrect language was set to another language (I really can’t get anything right 😂)