I know some people get irritated or annoyed or try and tolerate screaming loud young children. That's for people who aren't parents or been around lots of young kids But I worry my father's tantrums and angers at me at a very young age has seeped into my conscious.

I not only get irritated with noisy kids, I get Angry, I want to shout and yell at kids to shut up. Anything about very young children annoy me to the point I have a very dark thought of wanting to spank or slap a kid. Something I got as a kid, and I know for sure if I had kids of my own I worry I would Repeat the cycle of intergenerational trauma.

And I am scared that I have these thoughts and have never and would never act upon these thoughts cause I know how Wrong it is to want to intimidate or hurt a child. But the thoughts Linger