Has anyone been else in a situation like this? I’m a college student who can’t go home (abusive family), and I’m struggling to find summer housing. On one hand, if I live alone for too long, my suicidal ideation and dissociative disorder will likely get much worse. I don’t really trust myself to live alone for three months with my dissociative disorder (I feel like I’m much too likely to just leave the gas on and walk away by accident, etc.) But I‘m so terrified of other people that I can’t imagine living with anyone else. I feel like I’m really stuck between two equally terrible choices here.

I keep putting off making the decision because my symptoms are so intense nowadays, and both options seem so awful. But I know I can’t put this decision off forever. My housing situation is preoccupying my mind to the point where I can’t even think about anything else. None of my classmates are in a similar position- they all have families they’re eager to return to- which really adds to the intense loneliness of my situation.

Has anyone been in a similar predicament?