Okay so, um, I'll try to make this as brief as possible and get to my point..... I have had a rough few years with my daughter who is now 10, we had some real difficult times. I deal with cptsd, anxiety disorder, borderline personality disorder and agorophobia, and substance use disorder, my daughter also has her own struggles with PTSD, ODD, ADHD and anxiety with conduct disorder or something like that...... Anyway we were both in a very rough spot and about a year and a half ago she was removed from my care, I fell into my addictions further and ended up in jail on a probation violation last fall, since I've been home in February I've been doing what I need to to get her home, I have moved back home with my mom, I've been in treatment since April, and we are so close to having my daughter back home with us. And she has come such a long way with her emotions and expressing herself, she's been through a lot while she was away, she spent some time in a group home because of her behavior then a phsyciactric facility where she was finally correctly diagnosed after years of me trying to get her help, she learned so much there and uses her tools, her meds are also helping her to control her emotions more. I am so proud of my little babe....... But my anxiety and PTSD has been in high gear lately, I worry about whether or not I can go back to being a mom after everything I have home thru since she has been gone, my flashbacks of the past fights and tantrums and self injuries, I'm so afraid she will settle back into her old ways and I am trying so hard to keep a handle on mine so they don't come out, I'm worried about how I'll deal with our rough days..... I feel like I'm rambling at this point, I'll end it here because I'm not sure if I got to the point because I forgot the point I was trying to make...... Anyway, if ur still here with me, thanks for hanging in there with me this far, any thoughts, advice, encouragements are greatly appreciated, but thank you for letting me unload...... Peace ☮️ Love ❤️ & Fairy Dust ✳️✨✳️