I just can't get away from this man and I don't know why, when I was in rehab we had a group on domestic violence and if it could have been named Shawn then it would have fit perfectly..... He makes me feel even worse than my mother did as a child, I have been self mutilating again which I haven't done in years since the last year I've been with him...... He gets so mad andncalls me horrible names then when he is over his fit I better be over it to because watch out if I'm not....... Like today, our year anniversary I'm nothing but a fucking spank and dirty cunt then 2 hours later it's all fine and dandy...... Ugh I can't do it anymore, I can't stay sober or happy around him nd that's not okay with everything I need to be doing with my life