i've been dissociated from my emotions for a long time which resulted in long time depression and anhedonia and now i'm 2 and half years deep in therapy and i'm still not a able to fully connect to my emotions and to myself. For example i always feel some type of disconnection from my friends as if i must keep emotions as a secret. I can't even express my interest in a romantic partner because i'm scared. Also in therapy i can't cry, sometimes (very few) i feel the urge but i suppress it. I can cry when i'm alone but it happens rarely and i don't know how i can go on like this i feel like i don't wanna meet people or my friends because i feel distant. I need some advices thank you <3. One thing i can do is talking about my emotions or telling to some people that i cry sometimes or when im sad but i struggle a lot with this especially with romantic interactions i can't feel like myself sometimes like i can't let them know i like them :(