In some way I kept quiet about my abuse. I don't know why. Maybe my mom manipulating me enough to where I think grew up normal and was just a monster being born. I definitely wanted another mother and not mine. I imagined it alot. Where I would be happy. I kept alot of stuff to myself from her. I know I would bring up something mean she said to me and she said I DIDNT SAY THAT BE QUIET.
I also have a faint memory of my step father touching me. My pocket areas I get iffy. I'm fine if I touch my pocket areas but other people I don't like it. I was hyper sexual I think after that incident. Very very sexual online watching porn and masturbating with others. I just couldn't stop thinking of sex. Even now being 24 I get waves where I'm really weak and I hump my bed. Plus my mind is so foggy right now I can hardly remember anything.