I’m 27. I’ve been in therapy for 11 years bc of horrific abusive parents and other abuses. I’ve been NC with my parents for over 6 years.

I’ve done therapy, medications, exercise, went to physiotherapy to deal with chronic pain caused by abuse, I worked my ass off to not be broke and homeless and to leave my abusive parents as soon as I could.

I’m tired. It was never my dream to spend so much of my life in therapy or doing healing work. I don’t want to do it anymore. For once in my life I would like to do something I genuinely enjoy doing - and NOT spend my life working on my mental health, heal, or go to therapy bc I hate doing all of that shit. But I’m too mentally ill to even do anything that I genuinely want to do.

I just want to give up. I’m tired of living and existing on this planet. Life sucks.