CW: Sexting, Emotional abuse/neglect

So I had a tough session with my therapist last week which I think has been the trigger of this where she found out about how my mom treats me and she thinks it's abuse and I kinda had a nagging feeling it was but I was just insecure and doubtful of myself I think having it confirmed is having all those feelings collapse ontop me and I went to masturbation like I used to to cope with negative emotions by getting in that high zone.

I took it up a notch this time tho after taking out my pent up sexual desires out on a nsfw alt where it was simply a text wall horny ramble and I got a few dms but the one that caught my eye was a girl around my age and I just kinda was in stupid hormonal young adult mode and stupidly agreed to everything she asked of me and then I felt so validated by sending nudes to her and being praised like my mother never did and actually my mom would frequently make me feel ugly or not good enough so I took a risk and posted a nude on reddit and I started getting loads of attention and I was casually sexting a lot of women chasing highs and praise but it was kinda looking like the start of an addiction as I was spending hours filming and touching myself for it all and I kinda was feeling not so great about it all at the time of night my antidepressants are less in effect after 24 hours coming down from the high and I realized that I need to lower my reward chemical levels but addictions are easy to fall into and I kinda need to stay on my meds so I went off the cbd I take for sleep unfortunately that did lead to insomnia and just kinda ruminating and like having flashbacks and panic attacks but I'm sure it's worth it in the long run.

Now that it's that time of night again as I'm writing this it's kinda hit me way more as "oh this is just a coping mechanism, shit" but at least I'm being setting more boundaries too instead of blindly chasing praise but there's still more to go and I wanna know the right ways to combat this and I've kinda been curious if I'm hypersexual at all in the past but this definitely is a flag that means that if it is I gotta watch out for it more.

So is this hypersexuality so I can manage it or am I reading too much into this?