Aside from the abuse I experienced at the hands of my dad and brother, I always end up falling for guys that just use me or play me or hurt me in some way. Even my ex, who I thought I could trust, broke up with me and left me.

Recently, I had a crush on a famous YouTuber (not a huge one but still has a large following) and I was surprised he actually showed interest in me and was texting me for a few days. But he kept making it all sexual instead of being clear about whether he sees a relationship with me. The worst part? He’s a dating coach lol. So he doesn’t follow his own advice. This is why I have trust issues. I won’t say on here which YouTuber it was because I’m scared and don’t wanna get sued so please don’t ask me but I was just so appalled.

Now I’m just repulsed by every man and just wanna stay single forever. I’m scared of being alone but I’d rather die single than be with the men that exist today.