Context: i am an 18 year old male. For the past year i have been stuck in a limbo trying to work out if i was abused as a child, I’ve started to have a lingering feeling about it but nothing happened until 7 or 8. Around 7 i got addicted to pornography and would masturbate. Around 8 I started puberty which is extremely abnormal. Around 7 or 8 my cousin also started forcing me to kiss her (only saw her a couple of times as she lived on the other side of the world). Later when i was 11 i was pressured into giving oral sex to my friends and this triggered me to become hypersexual for a good 4 years. Now i understand what happened around 11 was technically assault but i cant help thinking something happened before. I have OCD as well and some traits of cluster B personality disorders but am not going to get a diagnosis as it wont help. Im lost.