I’m unsure about all of you, however, I have done some less than fortunate things which I’m sure have left some people traumatized. I was never an intentional, covert, or explicit manipulative person. I simply have made less than gracious choices which may or may not have harmed some people. I really do believe I am a kind person and want the best for people… Now that I suffer from PTSD atrocities when I’m really down and out I can’t help but feel awful for the things that I screwed up, or how I treated people at times. Ya know? I never was intentionally hurting anyone but I’ve made mistakes that were selfish and for sure hurt people. Does anyone understand what I mean?

I don’t know how to rectify those. Even with some I have had the conversation with to make amends but still… I just can’t believe how stupid I was, or oblivious, or careless with peoples hearts. And now that I’m suffering myself - my brain and heart seem to just hammer down on me for all of that. Perhaps this is what is due. Karma of sorts.

Help? Anyone?