I wake up. I can be relatively free/calm for an hour or two. Then anxiety kicks in hard for about an hour. The thoughts, the chest pain, etc. I let that ride out. Then I have this massive weight on my chest that just doesn’t leave which coincides with elevated heart rate. I don’t even know what emotion it is that my body needs to process. I’d like to say this isn’t depression but it does feel like trapped energy. I no longer have intense somatic pain. No obtuse sensations. This is more of a subtle energy/emotion that I can’t seem to detect. But it doesn’t go away and it’s awful and I don’t know how to process it. Any suggestions or idea of what emotions it may be? Shame? Guilt? Resentment? Bitterness? Any thoughts, suggestions, or ideas are welcomed.