I won't say things I need to. I often times will say things to myself , in my head and think that I said it to a person, whoever I really wanted to say it to. And I isolate. I don't know why I am like this. Also, if someone talks to me. I find that a lot of times way too much of the time ... I get triggered by literally anything. Any body language or tone infliction or pressure or curiousness like anything that feels threatening to ME I get triggered and almost always snap on the person, accused them and blame them for my feelings and fucking ruin the whole functionality of our relationship like...innocent people getting made to feel like shit bc I seem to get triggered by almost any sort of confrontation or even just interaction anything unexpected...ugh . Terrible vent I just had to say SOMERHING 😭 I am only jsut realizing this about myself and I am so fucking lost and confused how to fix it ... especially the part where I just won't cant and don't say things out loud when I need to??