Life keeps hitting me with one thing after another. It has been this way my entire life, but lately it has been especially horrible. What makes it worse is I thought things were getting better and I was through the worst of it and I was far away from the abuse and was starting to recover, but then that was all taken from me and now l’m worse off mentally than before. I’m stuck living with my former fiancée who is the biggest reason why I’m back in this boat right now. I do not have the mental or physical energy to do anything or even do basic self care. I haven’t even picked up essential medications because there’s a problem that requires me calling them and I cannot bring myself to do it. I’m paid hourly, work part time, and have to work in order to survive. I can’t take a break, I don’t have the financial means or energy to do anything to improve my situation. I have a couple of friends, but nobody I trust enough or feel close to. I feel so alone. I feel like even taking the effort to write this was a lot. I’ve always prided myself on my optimism and determination and perseverance, but I feel like those are gone. What good were those traits anyways if I’m still living like this? Anybody been through this before? Tips? What do I do?