(17m)My caretaker just got on call with a friend(his names floyd) and he said I have a manipulative spirit (my caretaker loves taking my actions out of context and making them seem evil), apparently my mom said the same thing, and her other friend said I won't get far in life which they both agreed with when my caretaker brought it up.

Bro I wanna kill myself, wtf these people are so weird to me, she just said "I just had a fight and it felt good" while on the phone with another friend. I fucking hate the world and being underage, this suckssss. All the bad thoughts are coming back, I feel like killing myself again, everything I try to feel content for an extended period of time, she just comes and ruinsssss it(fuck floyd🖕). I'm trying so hard to turn my life around and be happy in the future and try to come to terms with my past actions, but she always makes me wanna kill myself, my caretaker loves calling me an junkie and loves to say I'm gay(she's homophobic and religous). Feel like an abuse magnet fr