I was doing pretty well for a few months and then the last 4-5 weeks have been going down hill. Nothing has happened. I think I’m just burned out from healing. It’s like every day I have to question every single action I do and try to make the choices that align with my ideal life. I’m exhausted. I’ve hit a brick wall and now for the last two weeks I’m back to functioning out of pure survival mode. I feel overwhelmed by the simplest tasks and all I want to do is go home and crawl into bed.

This week though, I’ve reacquainted myself with a familiar friend that I hadn’t thought about in a very long time. That persistent lingering feeling of deep shame and sadness is back. That overwhelming pain that’s just nagging at my insides. It’s back and now everything is worse.

It’s crazy how that feeling just comes out of nowhere. I was walking to pick up my lunch and now I’m holding back tears at work.

Nothing has happened. I’m just exhausted from trying to improve my life.