Hi, I'm Kelly. I'm 37 years old and almost 2 years ago, I was diagnosed with PTSD, which I learned through research was actually c-PTSD. My new therapist screened me for other disorders that present similarly to PTSD and found I didn't fit the criteria for any of them; he told me that he knew from session 1 that I have it but needed to rule out the other stuff. I knew that my dad was an asshole to me growing up but never would have described it as abuse. I intellectualised it and spiritually bypassed by forgiving him and "moved on." I thought that was enough but hearing from a professional that it was all-caps ABUSE changed everything I thought I knew about my life. I haven't had the chance to really work through this stuff in therapy yet because I fired that therapist and was dumped by my next one, and since the dumping I have lagged on finding someone else. I feel like I could go on and on about all of it but I honestly don't even know how to talk about in a concise or productive way. Would love to chat with anyone who can relate or offer any input. I welcome anyone to say what they think. Thanks.