I can't handle being lonely anymore. I hate being home alone. I go out but I have nowhere to go. I drive around aimlessly, I go to stores and wander around aimlessly. I go on walks. I go to concerts alone and everyone else is there with others and everyone knows each other. I don't know where to go. Where to fucking put myself. I've been this way since I was 13. I always thought things would get better with time but at 32 I'm just about ready to accept that things really aren't going to get better. I've tried. I've put myself out there. I've tried making friends online. I've met people irl from apps and always get ghosted. I'm so touch starved. I'm tired.