TW!!!!! COCSA/CSA | Child Molestation | Vivid memories | Possible forced drug usage on a child TW!!!!!!!!

I’ve been sexually assaulted in three separate incidents. I was 6 (female) and had an 11 year old (female) friend that I played with outside all of the time. We would just walk into people’s yards and run around the cul-de-sac we lived in. I remember some really weird sexual things we did with eachother and obviously I was just 6 so I wasn’t the one initiating it. I won’t go into detail at all but I ended up being molested by her from that age for another two years. I have this specific memory that keeps replaying in my head that I can’t block out. There’s a bottle or some kind of cup that I’m being forced to drink out of and was being assaulted I don’t remember if it was her doing it or her older brother (21) or another older neighborhood boy. I don’t remember enough details, just my “friend’s” voice speaking to me in a gentle tone and the way the lawn looked and how pretty of a day it was. Is this something other people have experienced or is it maybe my mind playing tricks on me? I’m really afraid because I think I was drugged or held down or something. I just remember not being able to move and dissociating. Thank you for reading my story, I hope you guys are doing okay