So, I never told anyone else about this besides my current partner. I think I was sexually abused by another child when I was younger. We were both about 9-10 years old. Maybe even 8, I can't remember. But back then, she was my best friend (they are transgender now but im going to describe them using the pronouns from how I remember this sorry )and we'd always hang out together alot. You wouldn't catch a moment where we weren't together. Except, we had this secret... thing we did.. it first started when we were playing in my room. Out of the blue she asked me if we could play doctor. She said to take off my pants so she could 'examine' me down there. I was obviously uncomfortable with this but I didn't want to say no because she said she wouldn't play with me anymore if I didn't let her. I remember agreeing nervously and went to the bathroom first to even make sure I was clean down there.. ( I used to have some hygiene issues so I didn't want to be embarrassed if she made fun of me.) So after I cleaned myself, I nervously did as she asked and let her see me down there. I remember her face observing it really closely but I don't remember if she touched me or not. Odds are she probably did though. I dont know if playing doctor like this happened more than once. It's all blank after that. Another weird thing we did though was flash each other our chests. I remember this happening very often when we would hang out together at our houses. I don't know if this incident was the first time or not, but I remember we literally flashed each other outside on our porch. This is crazy to me because we lived outside a major city in the suburbs so all the homes are town houses connected together and super duper close. I can't imagine how I was even able to do that without being super embarrassed but maybe it was because of me not wanting to disappoint her since she was my best friend. That's when, I think, it started happening at school, too. During lunch time we would sneak to the bathroom and flash each other there, too. Not sure if we did anything else sexual. I remember one time we got caught by some of the middle school students there ( my elementary went up to 6th grade ) so we started being more secretive. One of us tried to hide like on the toilet or something so it'd look like only one person was in the stall. We would also do it after school in the bathroom. I'm not sure if we snuck out of classes or not. I'm not sure why this went on for so long. Maybe I enjoyed it? Maybe I liked her? Or maybe I just wanted to make sure she wouldn't stop playing with me? I didn't really have any other friends besides her at the time. I just started to understand that maybe she did this to me because she was being sexually abused too. Tbh I've always been hypersexual since this and my partner describes to me that I seem to be hypersensitive when he tries to touch me down there. Yet at the same time I feel like something else could've happened to me before i was 8 yrs old ( not concerning my friend ) but anyways, this is just what I can remember right now. What do you think?