Thank you for the many connections that i have received from my last post. I understand that my post was harsh, but many of you were very honest about what you need and i am happy of the choices that you have made to want to feel again... I hope that my love will help you feel again.

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Many of you want the thrill of being "raped" and some of you others just want to be taken advantage of. I respect that and i hope you find it. Those of you who have been through those traumatic experiences and found wanting ... Come talk to me. I have fantasies that i need to fulfill. I learned at a young age that when people fear me i absorb that energy and it makes me want more. I want to cause physical pain and i dont have to beat anyone to do it. I want to see you cry and taste your tears while i remain in control of your life and situation for the time that i have you. I need a release just like you need to feel.

I want you to fight and i want you to know that you will TRY to win, but you wont. I want it to remind you of your first time or rather the multiple times that broke you. When your father, brother, neighbor, boyfriend, uncle, grandpa, ex, or even teacher... maybe even a police officer destroyed your psyche and made you think of yourself less that what you really are.... You are the one that i want.

Some of you females used to post that a boyfriend took advantage and at the time you didnt like it, but you secretly did and now its how you get off. Many of you have said it happened when you was younger and sometimes over the years. My biggest fantasy is to watch your rapist take advantage of you for as long as he or she wants and you politely ask him to leave as you kneel before me and tell me how much you secretly enjoy it.... If its your father.... I want to shame you for it. I want you to call your mom and have a full conversation with her, while i continue the damage. She is going to hear you cry and i am going to lust over it. She's going to want to come and comfort you, but i want you to tell her that everything is ok and that you have someone there taking care of you. Is that too much? Is it crazy? Am i a Sadist?? I am alot of things....

Tell me what you need.... I want to fulfill it.... after that..... I want to crush you deeper. I want you to do things that you never thought you could do in this situation and always know that i care for you. I want to do this to you because you need to feel again. You need to relieve your urges, you need to relive the experience and then i want to take you to a whole other level... I want you to make a choice and i want to see it. I want the control as you want to give it up. I want to see the nonstop shaking of your body and you will crack under the pressure of what i can do to you. I dont need to blackmail you... I want you to know that i already have you and yet wanting more.

If this brings chills to your body and yet a bit of warmth in your loins... then you are the person that needs me.