I got “raped” on Valentine’s Day by U/suchsize2895 and i have no regrets.

I would like to start off by saying i have had this kink for quite some time now. I came across CNC_connect a few months ago and was a super silent browser. I never even considered responding to a post, i just really enjoyed reading the way people wanted to take advantage of girls or the way girls wanted be taken advantage off. Some of the details are just… ugh! I couldn’t get enough of it lol.

It wasn’t until about a week before Valentine’s Day that I had something happen in my life that kinda through me threw a loop. It sent me into a spiral and i needed to feel.. something. I CRAVED to feel helpless, to be used. I decided to just let go and allow myself to act on this burning desire. So i opened up this lovely sub Reddit and did some browsing around in my area. I wanted to be pretty specific with what i was looking for. I needed this to be a release and i needed it to check all my boxes. I also wasn’t too sure if this was something I’d ever do again so i wanted to be picky.

I came across a post that was extremely intriguing and left me quite turned on. It was a very aggressive and straight to the point type of post. He said “im feeling frustrated and i need some one to take it out on”. That spoke to me because i felt the same way but just opposite roles of course. So i stepped off the edge of the cliff I’ve been on for so long, and messaged him.

Immediately, he was very responsive and communicated with me so well. He was big on making sure i was getting exactly what i was looking for. He asked all the right questions. When i decided that i wanted to possibly move forward we exchanged info and photos. He was tall, attractive, covered in tattoos, strong, charming, and basically the main character in all my fave dark romance novels. At that point made up my mind and knew this was my guy.

He knew it was my first time doing cnc and he wanted to make sure i felt safe and comfortable. we discussed limits and safe words multiple times. He answered any and all questions i had. (I asked ALOT of questions) He really did make me feel comfortable and safe and excited to experience it. This was extremely important to me.

After talking about a few ideas we settled on me coming over to his house. He let me decide how i wanted initial beginning to happen. I had a few ideas but asked if i could just come in, use the restroom to change into something comfy and have it start as soon as i come out.

So that’s what we did. I got to his house, was greeted very politely by him. We did just a tiny bit of small talk as he showed me to his bathroom. I changed from street clothes to something more appropriate (easier to take off). A small, light pink Valentine’s Day crop top and pink loose pajama shorts.

Once i was ready It felt like i was standing in the bathroom for hours lol. I was sooo nervous my hands were shaking. The mix of excitement, adrenaline, and fear was an exhilarating feeling.

I finally worked up the courage to open the bathroom door that was connected to his very dark bedroom. When i opened it i had barely even stepped out before his hands were around my neck and i was on the floor. He immediately began threatening me, asking me if i want to “get raped on Valentine’s Day”. “This is what you wanted right? You slut” (ughhh). All while throwing me around and choking me. He had me on the bed, the floor, pinned against him, in a choke hold, on my knees. I was relentlessly trying to fight him off. Gasping for air. Growing weaker and weaker.

It wasn’t long before i was stripped naked and pinned to the ground. He first fucked my throat. I was surprised with his size and extremely intimidated about him going all the way in. It hurt but it was such a good type of pain. He fucked my throat for awhile going in as deep as he could and forcing my head down for as long as i could handle. He was slapping me, rubbing my spit all over my face, choking me, calling me names. Really just taking absolute control over me no matter what I was doing to stop him. He eventually came in my throat.

But oh boy oh boy he was not even close to done.

After he came in my throat i needed a minute to gather myself up and BREATH (lol). I was a mess in the best way possible. He set me on the bed and while i was trying to figure out how to function again he took the time to go get some of his toys.

He brought in a leather belt, paddle and magic wand. He flipped me over on my stomach and began to use and abuse my body even more. This was my first time experimenting with any type of whip so the pain was not something i was expecting. It STUNG. It was surprising how good it felt though. The sting didn’t linger long.

After my ass was as red as a tomato he switched over to the wand. He held me down a bit more so that i couldn’t struggle with my hands or arms and he placed the wand on my clit. He knew exactly what he was doing because I could feel him adjusting it, he would move it to the left a tad, push it down alittle farther, adjust it ever so slightly. All extremely deliberate and calculated. He knew exactly the spot he was looking for because as soon as he found it.. holy fuck.. I’ve never experienced an orgasm that was as intense as ones that followed. The MULTIPLE orgasms essentially back to back. Not even sure how many lol. In the middle of it he even stopped and made me beg to cum which was hard because i was in such a state of fuzzy brain but so fucking hot at the same time.

When he felt like i had enough of that he decided to leave a few marks by biting my ass cheeks and then the inside of my thighs.(still have bruises as I’m typing). Then he got himself hard in my throat again, flipped me over onto my stomach and started fucking me. While he was fucking me he was saying all the right things. Just exactly the type of stuff you’d expect to hear from a dominant, sadistic predator ;) he also continued to do just the right amount of choking.

After a good time of him fucking me, he came inside me. He then pulled me off the bed, put me on my knees, told me to look him in the eye and say thank you. Once i did he then told me to lick his dick clean and give give it a kiss. I did.

Then he very calmly told me to take all the time i needed and left me in the room. We had previously discussed that when we were done i needed some privacy to use the restroom and get myself looking somewhat functional again. I think it maybe took me about 10 -15 minutes to get cleaned up and ready after that. He was very polite as i was getting ready to leave and even helped me find my clothes lol. I was very nervous that i was going to feel extremely embarrassed and awkward afterwards but he truly did a great job at providing a comfortable vibe and space.

10/10 experience!! He will not disappoint. Especially if you communicate exactly what you’re wanting he will make sure it happens.

It was actually so good that two days later i kindly asked him to use me on a hike for my birthday ;). He happily obliged. I think I’ll save that birthday present for another post though ;)