this is going to be insanely, maybe unnecessarily long because i’m like.. trying to be genuine and serious and thorough etc etc blah blah blah whatever.

SO

i want to lose my virginity! coming to cnc connect for this is an interesting choice, but i’d like to do it with someone older, bigger than me, stronger, and relatively experienced. someone who’ll just help me get it over with, and maybe help me figure out what i like, and what i want in the future. i’m aware of some of the things i think i want. i know i want to release control, and the need to think. these things, specifically in intimate circumstances, really stress me out. i think i get turned on by being afraid? i sort of like roughness, and coercion, and mild uncertainty. most of all, i would really like to be.. not sober when i lose it. of this i AM certain. if this is a deal breaker for you then, like, dunno why you’re still here.

some requirements for you, my would be rapist. i need to be attracted to you, and vice versa. if we vibe, i'd like to share pictures first before meeting up. no hard feelings if it doesn’t work out, but if you’re going to be the first dude to put it in i’d like to feel decent about the man doing it. this means talking for an extended period of time, voice messages, calls, so on and so forth. additionally, i’d like to maybe meet you one or twice in a non sexual context to feel out your vibe in person. i have sensory issues, and texting can only do so much. i need to trust you. i want to be able to go through with this, and in order to do that you need to be someone i’m able to know. if becoming decent friends with a possibly annoying eighteen year old girl before you fuck her doesn’t sound chill, you’re not my guy. also, i can’t drive yet and i can’t host, so you have to be able to pick me up. also please be ddf. i have so much anxiety abt std’s it’s not even funny. i’m a human being please respect my circumstances and my limits! please be patient with me.

my limits, some hard some not. under no circumstances will i do scat, watersports, raceplay, permanent harm, vomit, bestiality, or harsh illegal things. anal is a hard maybe, more of a no. i don’t do nudes, don’t ask for them. impact play is all fine and cool until it’s not. don’t hit me with all your brute man strength. i have health issues, pal. additionally, sorry to say, it’s very unlikely you’ll get good head from me. i have really bad jaw problems lol. good luck with that. not opposed to it, but it does hurt me a lot, and i can’t open my mouth that wide. expect teeth. might’ve missed some things but if we talk you’ll find out more, i’m sure.

anyway i know that was a lot but you’re all big boys you can handle some reading. if i seem interesting to you send me a chat.