I need you to make me regret ever thinking of doing this but at the same time, I want to crave to be used by you again. The meet up can happen however you would prefer. But at some point, I realize this is too much, too real for me. I don't really want to be used like the worthless horny slut I am. I don't want the pain my body hates but my mind craves it. You make me take the pain, take your cock in my hole, in my ass. You give into your pleasure and force me to take all that you can dish out. I’m seen as just two holes for your cock and cum. Your pleasure is the most important.

When I have done this in the past the men I have been with have been too scared by my cries but I need someone that my cries turn them on, my pain brings them pleasure. Makes them want more, to take more, wreck me, please. Leave me feeling the next day like this was a horrible idea and I should never seek this out again.

I know this isn’t very well thought out. I don’t really have a specific scenario in mind other than being forced to be your toy and plaything. The only other thing that is really important for me is to have your cum in my hole.

I am open to humiliation, and pain.  My hard limits are no fisting (I am tight and want to stay that way), no nipple or clit pain, no broken bones, blood or permanent damage, no breath play, no marks above my shoulder, ( I need to be presentable for work). 

Me: 5’7 264lbs black, slightly hairy.  I have had top surgery but original equipment below the belt.  

I am open to a lot of ideas to please let me know what you want. I have pics to share but I will not share face pics until we are closer to meeting up. I am willing to take additional non face pics if requested. I can host some days but would prefer if you would. Looking for northern Snohomish County to Whatcom County.