Good-looking straight guy - with a secret, shameful, submissive desire to be violated, degraded and emasculated by another man.

Normally I date women, and am generally dominant in bed with them. None of them would ever guess I'd post an ad like this. But I've long had a deep, dark, submissive side. Discovering sissy captions and hypnos has put that into overdrive over the past few years, and I want to give in.

To be clear, I don't look like a stereotypical sissy on the outside. I may be lean, but I'm in good shape, superficially masculine, an illusion of confidence masking the weakness underneath. If you met me, you'd never guess the kind of porn I watch - or that I'm secretly wearing panties. That I want to have my masculinity stripped from me and crave feeling vulnerable and broken.

I'm fascinated by the psychology of male-on-male rape: the emasculation, the shame, the power dynamic... And who knows - maybe the Stockholm syndrome, the twisted urge to be violated all over again. That's what I want to explore with you.

The details of the actual rape I'll leave open, because that will depend on both our kinks. Here's just a few of mine:

• Degradation (spitting, being called names, body writing, forced rimming i.e. literally kissing your ass)
• Emasculation/feminization (forced to wear lingerie / lipstick, called by a girl's name or girly nicknames)
• Overpowering (being pinned down, forcing my legs apart)
• Abuse (spanking, slapping, hair pulling)
• Submission (kneeling, crawling, kissing your shoes or feet)

Similarly I'm open to lots of different scenarios. Are we strangers? Friends? Coworkers? Family? The only limit is our imagination.

Like I said, if we click, I'd be open to making this a regular thing. It's by no means required, but I can't deny I'm fascinated by the fallout of an encounter like this, the deliciously abusive dynamic that might develop. What if my rapist stays in touch? Why can't stop I myself from reading the humiliating messages he sends? Taunts, threats? Or maybe something more creative, like links to lingerie he thinks would look good on me? How long before, hating myself, I crawl back to him?

From a practical standpoint: I practice Safe, Sane and Consensual BDSM, and I expect the same from you. I have a fair bit of experience (though with women rather than men). Safewords are a must, and outside of our dynamic, we need to be able to communicate as equals. We'll make sure we've talked everything through and completely comfortable with each other before we play. You don't need to have BDSM experience to respond to this post, but I do expect the right attitude when it comes to communication, limits, etc. I'm discrete, and I want you to be, too.

I'm located in the Netherlands, with some but limited capacity to travel in Europe. I speak English and Dutch. Even if you're not close-by though, please feel free to shoot me a message. I love talking about this stuff, especially with doms, so please don't hesitate to reach out. Who knows, maybe there'll be an opportunity to set something up down the line.