I'm a 32 year old gay man (or trans woman idc). I like to dress up and be feminine. However, I am not yet out publicly. I'm looking for a man who can help create a scene where I get raped as my feminine self.

All discussions (likes, dislikes, limits and safeword) will be help before meetup so that both of us can pretend it's a real scene. I've got a lot of ideas how the scene can starts. Most of them involve either you coming to my house or me being called to a location of your choosing. The pretext can be you want to deliver some stuff to me, you fixing something at my house, me going for an interview, me going for a photoshoot, me being a maid, etc.

Although I'd like to discuss kinks and limits a basic rundown of what I want is to happen is

1. Overpowered, open to discuss how we do this part
2. Restrained, once overpowered you secure me ropes, tape, cuffs or any other material so that I have a massive physical disadvantage from that point on
3. Torture, this is my favourite part. Much more than the actual sex. Looking for typical bdsm stuff during this like sensory play, sensory deprivation, impact play, hot wax, etc. Ideally I would also like this to be the longest stage in terms of time as it doesn't always need active participation on the part of the aggressor.
4. Sex, this part should can happen as often as you want in between the torture bit. I can handle pretty rough use of my mouth but please start slow when using my ass (you can get harsher once I get used to it, can discuss in more detail over PMs)
5. Escape/Aftercare If its at my home I want the scene to end with me in easily escape-able bondage (we can discuss what counts as easy to escape). If the location is somewhere else then easy to escape bondage, you not looking and access to my stuff like clothes and stuff. I want the aftercare/debriefing to happen via text or call once the scene is over.

Finally, this is just a fantasy of mine so if this is not one to one match of what you want then feel free to send me a message. All of this can be changed except for anything that violates the safe, sane and consensual rules of bdsm.

Hope to see you in my inbox!