For background, I used to smoke normal weed a lot many years ago. Then one day I had a horrible panic attack, and have honestly had anxiety issues ever since then. Every time I have tried any THC or CBD since then has sent me into a full blown panic attack. Even the smell of it has been a trigger (I'm lame at parties).

A few years ago I tried some CBD flower pre roll. I went very slow and actually enjoyed it. After a few days of smoking this I think I went overboard and had another panic attack, so put it down again. I've been reading more and more about CBD and how helpful it can be, and I really want that for myself. I've always been jealous of people who can smoke because I know it truly helps people, and if I could just get over my own stupid anxiety then maybe I could have that too.

Yesterday, I bought pre roll CBD cigarettes from a trusted shop. I took one tiny puff, and had a bit of a panic attack. I used all my coping skills to get through it, and then when I felt better I took another hit. No anxiety that time. I took a few more hits and then actually felt the effects of the CBD.

For me it's feeling a lot like normal THC, and I know that's probably because I'm extremely sensitive to the trace amounts in the flower. This morning I smoked about a half of a cigarette (100mg each) and for about 10 minutes I had to sit there breathing and grounding myself because it felt so much like a real high it was probably triggering my PTSD from the bad experiences I've had. I guess my question is, would it be worth it for me to continue smoking in low doses (less than half a cig, so less than 50mg) to build up a little bit of a tolerance? I know some might say to just put it down, but I'm determined this time to not give up so easily on it because I know how beneficial it can be. I know that 90% of my anxiety about it is just in my head and I need to get over that.

Also, I think any edibles or tinctures would give me more anxiety because then I'm just waiting and waiting for that to hit me, and if I don't like it then I'm locked into that feeling for however long it takes. Whereas smoking I can go hit by hit to see how I'm feeling and stop when I want to.

I'm sorry for the book, I suppose writing this all out has been therapeutic for me in a way as well.