Before my conversation with a friend of mine, I had been very focused on helping other people and trying to be very compassionate. But then I had the thought that I wasn't treating myself well enough because I was so focused on helping other people. The compassion I once felt for other people and the pain they were going through feels like it's vanished and I'm much more focused on catering to myself instead of other people...

I don't know, I don't feel good about this change and I've noticed myself lashing out on other people to save time in conversation and I've completely disregarded other people's feelings. I feel like I'm slowly sinking back into attachment to pleasure.

I haven't been able to meditate lately because of some physical issues, and I really don't like that my contentedness with the world, other people, and my own life. Any insight?