I am very committed to compassion for others, especially when they act poorly out of confusion or hurt but for some reason my personal experience with even seemingly decent people has always ended in a realization that I am kinder than most people on this planet. I know that's a broad generalization to make but we all want to understand the world on a broader scale and I don't know what else to think when almost every experience has taught me this. Of course I have come across some very kind people and have a couple friends I consider about just as kind as myself, but for some reason my life has always been pretty unfortunate and lonely.

I've read in Buddhism that it's okay and logical to understand certain things about yourself even something as prideful as this since we are all not exactly created equal. But it's often very hard for me in my daily life to not feel frustrated and confused as to why my life is the way it is and how good people don't often get what they deserve while corrupt people do.

The goal is to be humble and not hold yourself above everyone else because obviously that doesn't make you a good person.

Would anyone have any advice on how to practice humbleness through mediation or daily life?