Hello friends,

I am a student of Buddhism, but I also like Neuroscience and Psychology.

Having dealt with depression, I have witnessed what it means to have no desire- When I was depressed, I wasn't interested in anything. Nothing was fun. Nothing was worthwhile doing. In fact, I felt aversion. I felt aversion watching movies, playing games, or any fun activity you can think of.

In Neuroscience, the conceptualizations of desire seem to be related to anticipatory wanting and consummatory liking. - anticipatory wanting being just like - when you think of buddhism, when you think of gym, how motivated are you? Do you feel an impulse? A buzz?

And consummatory liking - how much you enjoy something while you're doing.

When I was depressed, both of these were completely silent. I had no anticipatory wanting and no consummatory liking. However, freedom from desire did not led me to being at peace - I felt aversion, I felt disgust, I felt intense boredom that I couldn't escape.

While I am not depressed anymore, I still get every now and then these feelings. I wonder how should I deal with them. Here's what I've been thinking so far

1. Be mindful - especially the non-judgmental part
2. Learn to enjoy the little pleasures of life
3. Stop clinging to pleasure - seek mastery, learning
4. Stop resisting boredom and aversion

Easier said than done. Any other advice? Any relevant Suttas?

Thank you and may you all be happy