Sooo this is a complex epiphany I came upon and I would’ve never expected. I was in a psychiatric hospital and experiencing the worst pain of my life with a terrible migraine after days of no sleep, with extreme yelling and chaos from other patients making the migraine unbearable. I wasn’t friends with with anyone at that facility at the time, and I was so physically weak that I could get up and ask for help/assistance. I had no mouth but needed to scream, it was like my head was being shot with 1000 bullets repeatedly. I was in such severe pain and mental anguish that I considered the possibility that I was in hell. I’ve never really believed in hell, but that moments was so miserable I couldn’t shake the thought that I died and was in hell because I couldn’t comprehend suffering being so intense and horrible. And then I came across a thought that changed my life. I have always been interested in Buddhism and read up on it and agreed with the points, and while I’d describe myself as a very caring and empathetic person, my hatred towards those I consider immoral and a stain on society was simply limitless, and I saw that was a barrier in becoming truly enlightened with Buddhism as for what I understood you cannot have hatred for other period to truly enter on the path to enlightenment. But in that moment of extreme misery in the hospital I considered how terrible that moment being hell would be, and came across something I had never touched before. I pondered if this is what a pedophile got for eternity, would it be justified? And the pain and anguish was so intense I concluded that no one should deserve suffering like this. I always thought bad people deserve endless torture, but in my most miserable moment, where I felt what complete despair truly was like, I flipped on that view. I’ve always had hatred towards this world and the terrible people that control, run, and ruin society. I don’t love billionaires destroying the environment and living conditions now, but I no longer feel intense hatred at them. At the end of the day, I’ve become convinced that no one truly deserves boundless suffering. It was like a sickness within my soul had been cured and I never knew it was possible. My most painful moment led me to discovering boundless empathy. In my 21 years of life, I had never come across a thought so profound, and while I had experienced spiritual ground breaking realizations, I never knew that the most important epiphany could come from a moment of stone cold sobriety and suffering. So yeah, I’m looking into possible Buddhist insight as to what the interpretation of this experience would be. I have maintained for a couple years that if I were to become religious, I would follow the eightfold path and Buddhist thought into stabilizing and reclaiming my life, and I now feel ready to commit to that. So I’m essentially looking for feedback on this experience, what it truly means, and what the next steps are to take. I would appreciate any sort of response thank you!