My entire existence is both intense needy excessive clingy obsessive toxic dark twisted overly affectionate intimacy addicted cuddle happy super attached suffocating touchy feely separation anxiety love sickness or extreme insatiable constant all-consuming evil vile sick fucked up sinister sadistic deprived degenerate forceful freaky tyrannical feral carnal hypersexual urges. I'm looking for a twisted puppy girl, derange sickening depraved cringed, icky creepy stalker loser, hyperobsessive ride or die sub, insane murder suicide pet cumdump or a extremely intense masochistic yandere who is willing to be my little sister, plaything, fuck toy, slave and obsession who genuinely wants to be abused, violated, tormented, use a for my desires urges sick fantasies and pleasures, toys with, be enamored with, to completely obsessed over and indulge that obsession, and loved in the most vile twisted messed up demented Sinister way possible by me and me alone. That I can have a conversation with, be goofy / silly with, be excessively hyper affectionate with each other, have deeptalks, be emotionally intimate

Honestly yes I want to be seen as a monster and be loved for it 100% but also I want to be able to have a conversation to be goofy to do stuff together and so much more. I want to be able to talk to trpgs play them with someone I love because yes I very much do absolutely enjoy ttrpgs is one of my favorite things. I want to be able to watch movies, TV shows, animes, YouTube videos, and so on together. I want to lay in bed during a rainy day and listen to podcasts together talking about the podcast or just having it in the background while we'd be silly or are we talking about random ideas or have a conversation about honestly literally anything. I want to be able to play video games together however that might look regardless of if it's a co-op video game that we can play together or a single player video game where we're cuddling and she's watching or I'm watching though I think I honestly might prefer if she was watching and doing a lot of commentary but I think I would be happy either way. I want to tell her about books I've read or campaign I'm writing or a world in building or any of those imaginary things that run through my brain or I'm just thinking about. I also want to be the person she tells everything to she tells me what she's thinking what she's working on what she wants to create and here every idea she has even the one she thinks that are dumb. I want to be dumb together. I want to hear every emotion that she feels whether I can help cheer her up or not just being able to be by her side and going through it with her. I will devour every emotion she has happy sad mad excited regardless and cheer her on every single time. I want to be vulnerable with her and I want her to be vulnerable with me. Even with the madness the sick Twisted vile desires that run through my brain the icky dark Sinister cracks that make up my heart the messed up obsessive malevolent love that I have and the chaotic feral carnal evil possessiveness that I am please are still things that I want to share, have, and give to her

I am looking for a relationship that is intense fast pace, deranged, overwhelming, obsessive, and is a lot of lovey-dovey.

I am the kind of person who either falls in love instantly, falls in love fast, or not at all. I want to be in a relationship where I don't have to hold back any form of affection or obsessiveness and they are able to match my insanity, affection, and obsessiveness or surpass it. A type of relationship where we try to spend as much time as possible together even if/ when we are both really busy. Where we send each other as bunch of messages, talking about our days how we feel, what's on our mind, just wanting to be close with each other and always thinking of each other. The kind that doesn't make PDA mandatory it makes it more natural than breathing because we are always in our own little world or nothing else matters but each other. That's sick overly sappy lovey dovey I miss you kind of vibe if anyone knows what I mean. The kind where we're just constantly sharing things with each other. Something that made us laugh, something we thought was interesting, a cool rock that we saw just because we want each other to be a part of these moments. A kind when we're sad what makes us feel better it's just being together. Where are we talk about anything and everything constantly. The kind when we can be fully open to each other and drown in each other's presence. Where we can go on cute dates holding hands with matching outfits like the outfits you have to coordinate to make this perfect, or just going on little shopping dates for groceries and cooking together or baking together. What kind of relationship that's just too overly overwhelmingly over the top kind of lovey-dovey that is pretty much even when we have arguments or fights or disagreements we can't help but want to be around each other and be close to each other feeling kind of lonely or empty or distress when we're not close to each other. The kind of thing that disrupts our life so so far from the norm that we become separate from reality unable to function outside of each other

I don't really have much to offer and I can't offer money. My love is broken Twisted sadistic feral violent selfish fucked up and monstrous but I will give every last ounce of it. I can offer every last bit of my love and every emotion that I have, I can offer absolute acceptance no matter how fucked up deranged Twisted dark, I can offer to always be there even during arguments, I can offer to always do my best to understand even during messy bits, I can offer always being someone willing to listen and talk to one another, I can offer always taking in your feelings your emotions and thoughts as often as possible, I can offer making as much time as possible for us, I can offer always doing my best to make up and not just sweep things underneath the rug or ignore them, I can offer never ignoring you, I can offer always being someone to talk to to be yourself with even at your most insane or at your worst, I can offer being a ride or die and I'm willing to talk about other things you might want me to offer if you are willing to belong to me and fulfill my vile desires, sick fantasy, Icky urges, Sinister cravings and so on