Hi - It's nice to meet you. I'm a little hesitant about doing this, because I'm in a transitionary period in my life. But, then I figured - why not?

I want to lay all my cards on the table before we go further because I know there's things about me that might not work for everyone, and I don't like springing shit on people after we've been talking for a few days. I want to be open and honest from the get-go.

1. I am a big girl. I'm about 268 as of this morning. Now, I don't know if this is relevant, but I was 315 about 4 months ago. So, needless to say, I'm losing weight. I'm on wegovy to help me reach my goal of 150. That's my current goal. If I reach it, I would want to go lower. But this is the body I have right now, and I'd want a partner who is cool with both it and with the body I'm working towards.
2. I am a detransitioned woman. I identified as FTM and was on testosterone for 2 years. There are basically 3 big changes that are semi-permanent/permanent. I have a little facial hair which I shave every day and am getting lasered off (and eventually looking to get electrolysis for, this is the one that really isn't permanent at all). I have a deeper, kind of androgynous voice that I personally think is sexy as fuck but I get it's not everyone's vibe. And, and I'm sorry to be crass, but my clit is big. It's like a teeny nub. This comes with the added bonus of it being basically impossible to miss. My body is unique and I think it's cool as fuck.
3. I want to be a mom someday. This is really important to me. If you're childfree, we just aren't compatible.

With that out of the way, I'd love to talk about my interests. I really love weird, sometimes esoteric shit.

I'm a big fan of anime and manga. Jojo's is my favorite of all time, but I also really like Chainsaw Man, Vinland Saga, Dorohedoro, and Mushishi. In terms of manga, my favorite of all time is Oyasumi Punpun. I also really love berserk. I'd love to find someone to sit through one piece with me (⁠灬⁠º⁠‿⁠º⁠灬⁠)⁠♡

Aside from manga, I actually read a ton. It's a good mix of self-indulgent smut and actual literature. I like to mix it up. I'd consider myself fairly well-read. Some of my favorites include Frankenstein, Wuthering Heights, House of Leaves, Crime and Punishment, and basically anything by Karin Slaughter (trashy pulp I can't get enough of). I keep my absolute favorite book a secret. You have to pry that one from me.

I don't watch TV as much as I do movies. I have never seen stranger things or squid game or sopranos or game of thrones or anything. This is because I grew up really, really into the walking dead and I got burned so bad I decided to never invest in anything again (mostly kidding). I DO love Vince Gilligan's stuff though. Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul are masterpieces. I also adore the Venture Bros and Columbo (which I watch every night to fall asleep).

Most of the movies I enjoy are not large, big-budget projects but indie films and the like. I like the good shit, the ones that make me feel like someone took a baseball bat to my guts when the credits roll, ykwim? But it's not all serious shit, I like goofy stuff too. The best stuff are the films that can balance both. Punch Drunk Love is arguably my favorite film of all time, but there's a ton of contenders.

I don't really like superhero stuff with exceptions (I liked both The Boys and Invincible, as well as X-Men 97 - Gambit is the ideal man and I'll take him if Rogue doesn't want him.). I also love horror SO damn much. We can make out and watch Evil Dead 2 and I think that'd be the best.

I love video games, and often use them as a form of escapism. Some of my favorite games are BG3, Crusader Kings 3, Hearts of Iron, Cities Skylines, Atlus RPGs in general (Persona, Devil Survivor, Soul Hackers, etc), Fortnite, and more. I love a good strategy game.

I have other hobbies, though! Knitting is a big one. I love to knit and crochet. I could make you sweaters and mittens. I enjoy doing my makeup and styling my hair (which is a short bob right now but won't be forever). I'm also a writer. My dream would be to publish romance novels and make a living doing that but I am not delusional in terms of how hard that is to attain and I don't plan to quit my day job lol. Lately I've gotten really into walking, too. Just observing the city and the landscape.

Music is a really big part of my life. I listen to an extremely broad range of stuff - from Swans to Mitski, from The Mountain Goats to Kendrick Lamar, from Bruce Springsteen to Death Grips. I am positive we will find something we can listen to together that won't drive us both crazy. (Sidenote, I would LOVE to get pounded to A Screw by Swans.)

I was raised Jewish but I consider myself an atheist. Your faith has no impact on my view of you, and I will never try to "talk you out of it" or whatever, as long as you don't try to convert me lol.

I would say touch is my love language. I want to be touched. Hold the small of my back. Let me lean on you. Lean on me, if you want. Words of affirmation are my other love language.

Sexual compatibility is important to me, so I will lay it out right here that I'm fairly submissive and also I have a really high libido. Like, crazy high. It's always been this way (except for the years I was taking Zoloft but we're on Prozac and Wellbutrin now baby ᕙ⁠(⁠⇀⁠‸⁠↼⁠‶⁠)⁠ᕗ

I'm into a lot of stuff. Very forwardly, breeding. I would ideally find someone who is also into this, and I think it's near essential honestly. I have nexplanon rn while I get my shit together and find stability but I really want a family. Fertility is actually a huge reason I started working to lose weight. I also have a daddy kink (no age play/DDLG shit, I just like calling my partner that), marking/collaring kink, and way more you're just gonna have to find out about I guess.

And while I am very submissive, I would also consider myself very... I don't know what's the word for it. I really enjoy expressing my desire and appreciation for my partner's body. I don't think men get that enough and I think men are so fuckin' hot. I would want my partner to feel desired and wanted and loved by me.

I have a few stipulations.

1. You have to be 21 . Anyone below that age, I will block.
2. You have to be monogamous and loyal. I am a profoundly loyal person and I really value that in a relationship.
3. No conservatives or centrists. I am only interested in left-leaning men. My sister is a lesbian and my best friend is transgender, and if you can't respect them, we aren't cool. I don't want the kind of man who would get mad if we found out we had a gay or transgender kid.
4. No antivaxxers. I'm vaccinating my kids. Vaccines don't cause autism and even if they did, I'd rather have an autistic child than a dead one.

I'm looking for someone to spend my life with. I know shits not perfect but I want that good, decades long love my grandparents had. I wanna meet my best friend and spend the rest of my life with him. If you're interested in anything I've said here, message me (with your age!!! I won't reply if that's not there). Let's talk.