I am a transgender man fresh out of top surgery as of a couple weeks ago.

A few years of testosterone have given me a masculine appearance and stopped my periods, which in theory should make me infertile…but recently I’ve not been quite so consistent with my weekly shot.

I’ve always had a pregnancy kink, but the past year has really taken the cake. Every single day I dream of sneaking out of my seedless boyfriend’s home, taking a “wrong turn” down a street or picking the wrong bathroom stall, and getting treated to a rough fuck and insemination that’ll change my life forever.

I’ve spent countless moments just closing my eyes and imagining my belly growing, inch by inch, until I can’t hide it anymore. After years of telling my parents and my older sister that I never in my life wanted to have kids, all I want in life is to be pumped full of somebody’s seed and spend the next 9 months incubating a child I swore I’d never have.

I can’t count the number of times I’ve nearly said fuck it and taken the first offer I could get on Grindr to go get fucked and impregnated on the spot.

I want it bad. I need to know what it’s like to have a baby inside of me. Hell, if I could, I’d make sure it would be twins or triplets, just to make sure my belly would be as big and beautiful as I’ve fantasized. But I will take whatever I can get.

My only barrier is that I don’t want my boyfriend to feel betrayed. He’s trans as well and can’t impregnate me. He doesn’t know I want this. I just wish I knew where I would have to go for the choice to be taken out of my hands. Or perhaps if there were a couple in need of a surrogate…then I could excuse getting bred up. But I need it either way. It’s really only a matter of getting the right offer.