I M27 have been going through a break up that I caused for the past 6 or 7 months. I had incredibly unchecked insecurities and I broke up with her after a petty fight and proceeded to break trust and talk to other girls, when confronted I tried to lie about it and lie about it to get out of the situation. My ex F26 broke things off and it absolutely devastated me. This has been the hardest break up of my life by far and I sincerely don’t know what to do. I still think about her everyday and I still love her. I’ve been blocked on everything but we have had a little communication when I reached out online to apologize but other than that she’s made it clear she’s wanted to move on.

I’ve realized the error of my ways and just want to make things right and be the man of her dreams. She was a great girlfriend and a great woman and I don’t want anyone else but her. I want to show we how much I’ve changed and realize how I can be better.

I really don’t know what to do. My heart tells me to fight for her but every sign has pointed to her not wanting to be with me. Should I try to reach out and fight or try to move on? How do I even move on from such a terrible situation? Of wanting to fix the mess I made but the person you love wanting nothing to do with you.

Please help me :/