After 2 months of not talking, she decided to meet me again to work things out. During our break, I already told my friends that I want to work on myself and I still do. I'm not someone who shares stuff about breakups unless when I think they're final. And I really thought it was. I feel ashamed of talking to her again when I already said it's over. Maybe I'm overthinking things. Maybe they don't care much about it. Idk, I really feel off.

I still want a relationship with her in the future but I also feel guilty that she's waiting for me. I told her that I want to work on myself first and recharge. I feel like I don't have the capacity to love someone now.

Just getting this off my chest.

Edit: I guess I'm having a hard time adjusting to out new setup. During those 2 months, I started seeing myself differently. I was having goals for myself. I had plans, was meeting my friends, etc. I was making progress. I didn't know she'd come back. I was already starting to feel comfortable being single. I feel like I need to adjust again.