We taked politely about our stuff, I guess she really wants nothing to do with me anymore. We didn't even talk about our relationship. I guess it's really over. I still wish we had a proper conversation before parting ways. We had a bad breakup. I already accepted the fact that we grew apart. I want to focus on myself and I hope she resolves her personal struggles as well.

It was a beautiful 4 years of my life. If the situations favored us we could've been together longer or maybe if we tried harder we could still make it work. We did talk about having a civil union (we're both lesbians). I guess I still find it difficult to believe because she's still closeted and I haven't even met her family yet. I really hoped to meet her family but it didn't happen. I've waited too long for things to align but I guess it won't happen anymore. I wanna let go of this hope so I can finally move forward.

I'm frustrated because I can't thank her enough. She really helped me grow as a person. She made me enjoy life again. She inspired me to sort my life out. I still love her and care about her and I know deep inside she feels the same.