You were all that I wanted in this world but I was never enough for you. You needed female validation even though you had me. You hid your girl friends from me and never dared to open snap by my side. You would tell me its none of my business. If I came to you with a question that clearly bothered me you would tell me to shut the fuck up and get over it. This never solved anything and made me more insecure.

You became frustrated and annoyed how insecure I was with your actions while you continued to treat me like a dog, only giving me attention when I acted ‘good’ or you felt like it. You only treated me nice when I was over your apartment where you could force your hands on me to satisfy your sexual needs, you didn’t care if I slapped your arms away.

I felt like I couldn’t express myself with you nor did you give a fuck about how I felt. You valued your hidden female friends over me. Iknow you would never stand up for me or fight for me. You would tell me if I didn’t like something to leave.

And I finally did.

I realized that you treated me like dirt.

You treated a beautiful person that would’ve gave you her all like a piece of trash.

Im so much better than that and I know my future husband will never speak to me in such a way. He will be kind and considerate of my feelings and give me the one thing ive been dying for.. to feel endlessly loved.

Loved to the point that I will never question his actions and we will only see each other.

I cant wait to find him (: