You can look at my previous posts to catch up and understand what has brought me to the point where I'm afraid of living in this world.

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I spoken with a therapist about everything that's happened. In the session I realised I any have even been raped and didn't even understand it (but thats a whole other post) They say to focus on what you can control and that's yourself. Which is true, I understand.

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But I don't even feel like I can trust myself to protect myself. Every sign and red flag was there but I was too stupid to see it, I kept believing the excuses and trying to be understanding and kind. The shame of allowing someone like this into my life is eating away at me.

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I've been through break ups before and I've never felt this hopeless. The thought that there are people like this that exist in the world and get away with it is terrifying to me. I feel so unsafe.