Me (23M) and her (19F) broke up almost 3 months ago. She broke it off giving the overused excise being that she wasn't in a place for a relationship. This being her first relationship ever to add. I am still crazy about her and it doesn't help that we work together and her group of friends mixed in with my group of friends.

This past weekend we both went to a party due to our mutual friends now, things were gonna be awkward but we had done this a few times before. Or so I thought. She went on to get very drunk and I stayed sober due to some medications I am taking. As the night progressed she got got the point of dancing with random guys. Was even worse that the hands of said guys were wandering. It was infuriating. I still love and care about her so much. She eventually sobered up and left. She texted me saying she made it home safe and it just killed me even more.

I tried NC but being that we work together it's practically impossible. We haven't really talked about the breakup since it happened. I've sent drunk texts and so has she but we never speak about it. This is the worst feeling ever an do wouldn't wish it on anyone. My heart aches just thinking about that night.

TL;DR - Went to a party with my while still in love with her and saw her dancing with random guys. Slowly killing me.