It's a bit weird to post this here, but it's related to my ex.

It's been 4 weeks, and part of my healing process is working out who I want to be, next step etc.

However I can't help feeling regret compared to my ex, over our youths and how she lived the hedonistic dream, while I had a more modest youth. Basically she got laid when she was 15, while I only lost mine at 24. Her count is waay higher than mine, even though she's 5 years younger than me.

I didn't care when we were together, because I was secure in myself, I knew what made me happy, and being with her was more than enough for me.

But now she's gone.... I'm wondering, maybe I want to be a playboy...but I know in the long run I'll regret it, but I can't see it now.

So I guess, I'm just trying to reach out here, anyone got any book recommendations on coming to terms with a regret, or a misspent youth?