My girlfriend broke up with me on Saturday. We had been long distance for the past few weeks and we were working on communication, changing texting habbits and Snapchat, etc. But I noticed she wasn't reciprocating. I was patient for about a week because I knew she was stressed about her work situation. But I spoke up a few days before we broke up. She agreed that it was one sided and she would try to do better. But nothing changed. I waited a few days and asked her if she could talk. I felt like we needed to talk face to face though a video call to sort this out, but she said she couldn't and was busy. We eventually got to talk later that evening but when I said how j had been feeling she said, "your right, I haven't been putting effort in. Lately I've just felt disinterested and numb. I haven't been feeling what I think I should be feeling at this point in our relationship." I asked her what she ment and she told me she wasn't excited by getting a text, or talking. She enjoyed it and loved talking to me but it wasn't exciting.

I know in the past she struggled with suppressing emotions and i know she has been very lonely since there are very few people out where she lives for her to spend time with. Her tendencies were similar to what I experienced when I was depressed over my parents separation. Nothing was interesting and I would box up my emotions.

She started crying because I got a little upset while I was processing it all and telling her I think she is depressed because I've experienced it. I told her i think she is wrong and she does have those feelings and emotions but she pushed them aside. I asked her what she wanted and she said "I think it's best if we broke up. I don't want to hurt you anymore, but I don't feel I can reciprocate your feelings. You were perfect. You did everything I asked when I felt there was a problem. You were the best boyfriend I could have asked for, you are an amazing guy and an amazing friend. There is not reason I shouldn't feel anything, but I don't." She stopped for a bit then said, "you say I'm depressed and you understand because you've been there. But this is news to me, I've never thought I was...." And trailed off.

We had some internet connectivity issues and so I made a joke about it then said, "I know I can't make you do anything, but I think you pushed away your feelings because you were scared or depressed. Please get help, for yourself, not because of me but because you will be happier. I loved you and I still do. If you want to breakup, I can't stop you... Just know I'm not going anywhere. " She suggested it might be best if we didn't talk for a while and talk again before school. I told her goodbye and that's the last I've heard from her.

Could she be depressed and suppressed emotions but pushed me away because she didn't want to hurt me in her pain? I want her back more than anything and am trying to keep my distance so she can heal and think. Her family and friends loved me and our mutual friends were shocked when she broke up with me. Only a few know that I have talked to for supper and to let some of her friends know they should talk to her. She doesn't share much with people because she doesn't want to bother them. I love her and want her back.