Me and my ex recently split up about a month ago. We were doing good and hanging out here and there again. Then she completely cut me off for a week. Didn’t text or call or like posts. The whole 9. And here recently we have been texting here and there. She did take me to see my lawyer yesterday for my court. And it was really awkward and quiet at first. Then we started talking a little but mainly listened to music.

After the lawyer we talked a little more. She let me hold her hand for a little bit in the car. And she had to stop and pay her utilities and she asked me to go inside with her. Then when she dropped me off we hugged. But it was one of those big “I miss you hugs”. We even gave each other a little kiss. Then she went home. She has texted me here and there since.

I just miss her. In all reality it’s my fault we are not together. I’m not gonna go into to much detail.. other then my drinking was terrible.. really terrible… today made 31 days sober. I’m gonna continue to stay sober.. but anyways.. we are back to the dust and texting again but she did say good morning to me first today. And she asked if I could watch her house this weekend while she is out of town with her family.. I guess the moral of the story is yesterday felt so amazing.. and I love the fact she still feels comfortable with me watching the house and having access to it without her around. So I assume she still trusts me a little bit. But it sucks.. I just want her back.. and I guess today after not being around her like I used to be. It hit harder today than others.. I just miss her. Thanks for letting me rant everyone.