I don’t even know what to say but I hate myself. Why did I have to be so fucking stupid. She loved me enough to reach out first and break no contact but my bad habits that led to us breaking up came back (overthinking, we were making plans for me to visit her at work and on one day she said she didn’t work but her location showed she was at the location of her job from 4pm-9pm). I’m sitting here at work trying to hide the fact I’m crying but to be quite frank I deserve this and she deserves better. I can’t get over the fact that I didn’t understand just how much she cared for me until she was gone for good. I know she’s done with me for good and all I can do is wish her the best because no apology will carry any weight in her eyes, I already have and she hasn’t even opened it.

When someone invents time travel lmk please