Not even two months ago my ex started having a “weird feeling.” We were both going through a lot of life changes, me especially (new job, moved, new roommate, new friends, started grad school) a week later we were sitting in a coffee shop and they made a weird face. I asked them why they made a weird face and they said they made the realization that they didn’t want to flirt anymore and our relationship felt more platonic. This entire thing was a genuine shock to me because they had been talking about looking for apartment, moving jobs to be closer to me, etc. we never fought. When i asked why he genuinely didn’t have an answer. He said he was in denial though. In the breakup he said that we should wait until thanksgiving to talk but we could still send things on instagram.

I have sent about 2 things in the last several weeks. 1 was 2 nights ago. He reached out to me to tell me that not talking has been helpful for him and he wanted to know if we could stop all forms of communication. He then asked when I wanted to meet for thanksgiving.

I feel so utterly unimportant. He walked away from me so quickly, without even a second thought. I also didn’t think the few times I have sent cat memes on instagram have been so bad. But i feel guilty like I’m not moving on quick enough for him. But also it feels his text last night was saying that i couldn’t get out of his life fast enough. I don’t even understand what there is to talk about during thanksgiving or what the next three weeks are going to change. I don’t know how to shift my perspective because i just feel utterly helpless.