Hey everyone this is my first post in Reddit. Please understand that this is still fresh. I come here to get some advice to improve myself. To start off I’m 21 male and my gf ex female is 24. We have been date for 7 months in long distant relationship. I had a trip to go see her which I was so excited to see her but on the oct 10 she broke up with me and I just looked in the FaceTime call was just sad, I don’t cry, did not fight for a reason, I just feel like someone just stabbed me in the back. On oct 1 my ex gf give me the silent treatment, and I didn’t understand why she was pushing herself away from me and I was trying to be very supportive on what going on, but she kept saying it’s fine. I give her the space that she needed and she kept leading me to think that the relationship well be fine. After the broke up I had one week left before my trip was coming, I went to go cancel my flight and I know that I will not get my money back it sick. I don’t know why I still want to talk to my ex gf, I be doing so well on having NC with her but I feel like I’m about to broke down just start talking to her again. I know talk to her will not do anything for me it will just hurt me even more. I’m just so depressed. If you have anyway to heal from this pain It will be very appreciate that. I’m sorry if my story was everywhere I just needed to let it out. Thank you for reading this. You guys have a good night or a good day wherever you are🫡.