My ex broke it off with me on Oct. 6 very suddenly and I was blindsided by it. To say I was beyond shattered and in shock is an understatement.

I wasn’t hurt but more angry at him. Considering how well we were together during our relationship (communication and talking about anything as friends, never arguing). I didn’t even get the decency of us talking about his decision. It was just this is what it is :( ugh

Anyway…I’m in the stages of what feels like grief. One minute I’m good, next day angry beyond belief to feeling very sick to my stomach missing everything about him and what I’m having the hardest time with is missing him and his chats/texts everyday.

He was my best friend. I have no one else really in my life (I have my son but it’s different) so I’m very lonely. I have 1 friend and she lives 2.5hrs away and we rarely talk or see each other . Just family.

Before this I was single for 14yrs by choice. Raising my son kept me from feeling alone. Now that he’s a teenager with his own life and friends, he’s rarely around. My mental health is mediocre and I feel just empty.

I know over time things will heal…this isn’t my first rodeo. However this is different for me. This relationship was almost perfect. It had everything I wanted in it with him. A connection I never had before in 32 yrs! So to loose this is a nightmare for me.

I yearn for him. I did when we were together. I missed him immensely when we were in a relationship because he brought me such peace and comfort I never had in my life. He offered me so much peace n now I’m back to feeling empty inside. I hate it. Normally I can shake a break up within a few days. Even when I was the one being dumped. Normally I was already mentally checked out. This time, not at all cause it was sudden. Yet I felt it about to happen before it did. I felt him pulling away.

For those who been in deep connection relationships, when does the “missing” feeling lessen and get better? How did you help heal ? Cause nothing I’m doing is working. I miss him 24/7. All day, when I wake up till when I sleep. Being busy doesn’t help. Focusing on life doesn’t help. Everything I do, I wish he was beside me.

He immersed himself in his work and works very long hours and travels for work, so this is a walk in the park for him. I know cause I do chat with him on and off.

No I won’t do no contact. We are maintaining a friendship as that is what we both want. He is someone who is worth waiting for if n when our lives give us an opportunity to try again. I stayed single for 14yrs by choice so I have no problem waiting for him again. If of course he wants to try again. He is and will be my last relationship. I can’t do this again w someone else. I don’t trust men and I don’t trust other ppls loyalty. I rather be single.

Anyway…what has helped you?