I found a way to reach out and I said goodye today. Even though it is breaking my heart and tearing me apart I realise it is what I have to do.

For privacy reasons I have replaced his name with a fake name.

"I guess you were indeed not the person I got to know, which means I never knew you. I am letting you go, Nick. I will never give up on you though. You dont do that to people you love, but I set you free.

You obviously don't realise what you've done. I truely hope that you don't when it is too late. I miss you terribly, but I guess I never meant anything to you. I love you, but you leave me with no other choice but to say goodbye.

I wish it didn't have to be like this, but this is all I get. Even though this breaks my heart I can't even be mad at you, because I know this is not you.

I wish you only the best. Happiness, peace and love most of all. I will never forget the Nick I knew. He will be forever in my heart.

Goodbye, Nick. I love you."

He will probably not even read the message, but I hope this helps me move on at least and that this whole experience prevents me from ever falling in love again. I am done.