I know we dumpers are hated here and I know the old excuse of I broke up because of myself is dumb as fuck. But believe me dealing with the pain of knowing how emotionally inept you actually were and how it made you to throw away something that was close to perfect is absolutely devastating.

At least you can convince yourself your ex was a piece of shit. I have to live with the fact that the best thing that ever happened to me is no longer mine and that will change the course of my life forever. I am no longer myself and I no longer have the only thing I really cared about.

At least you can move on to a functional person and be happy again. I will sit here in my despair wondering why nothing in life brings me joy anymore.